The tower card used to be infamous around the globe for the one card you didn’t want to get.

It meant you guys were going to break up, it meant bad news and it meant a life defining moment of disappointment.

People used to literally wait for the other shoe to drop, literally praying to the Virgin of Guadalupe that the reader was wrong or for her intercession on the matter.

‘Please stop the tower from happening. Please…’

That is a lot of pressure for a little card.

With the rise in popularity of tarot and its education we are learning that actually, life is full of tower moments and they are the one thing that keeps us from walking down the wrong road. Often a road someone else is leading us down or suggested to us.

The tower moment stops you from wasting more of your time on something that won’t fulfil you long term, bring you the money you need or will cage you not free you.

We owe a lot to those two little people jumping from that forsaken building.

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What makes the difference.

Say you have been working on a business, using AI to come up with a marketing strategy and locked in like never before. You can see this working and changing your life as you know it - you can finally put into the world what you want to.

You awaken after a New Moon and there is a little niggle that something isn’t right, your belief in you achieving your goals is wavering.

You open that App and enter the prompt “The marketing strategy for my business that we created. I don’t think it is going to work” and the response comes instantly…

Yes. I think you are right.

And then it continues to list all of it’s concerns, the strategies weaknesses and failures.

What do you do?

You follow YOUR instincts.

You do not chastise yourself for trusting a machine. You do not fall into a pit of despair for three days. You do not quit your entire business because it is never going to work. You definitely do not think this is a sign that you aren’t supposed to do it.

You rant to a friend and scream about how bad AI is. You feel the disappointment and the loss of certainty at having a concrete plan for a couple of hours. You decide if you still want to do the ting you want to do.

Then you pick yourself up, get a coffee and make a better strategy yourself, all the whilst running on a low level rage at AI to fuel your determination.

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This is a life changing tower moment.

If this hadn’t happened you would have continued for months with no success and given up on something that you could have done.

The same with relationships, friends, jobs and anything else you invest energy in. Anything that steers your life and affects your choices. Its better the band-aid is ripped off sooner rather than waste years with the wrong person.

Please listen to the tower moments, big and small. Accept that seeing the truth isn’t a failure on your part. It doesn’t make you stupid, it doesn’t make you naive. Everyone has tower moments - even The Rock who is terrifyingly successful and rarely puts a foot wrong in business.

Those who still continue to exist in the rubble of the tower after it has fallen will walk deeper and deeper into denial and the darkness. Nothing grows in the rubble.

~ Malika

My mediumship has been apparent since childhood, but I was formally trained - if you can call it that - at various circles after a wake up call.

The students all attend with the hope to be able to pass messages on to others in the circle with the end goal to be a working medium on the Spiritual Circuit in the UK.

When you first step into these circles as a newbie, stepping onto platform (stage) seems terrifying and so far off it’s ridiculous. Honestly, there are some that don’t want to go on platform, simply happy with honing their skills, but it is seen as selfish to not share your gift, and it gives your teacher a chance to show off.

After a couple of years, after my confidence grew and I stopped being scared of my own shadow, I wondered what the point of all this was.

It was the same people in the same chairs on Sunday waiting for messages from the same dead people. This was the one place no one was asking for evidence, and I understand a need for comfort, but this should be for a finite amount of time.

The mediums on the circuit were always the same and it was this little cliquey, incestuous, pat on the back circuit. They felt like heroes. Neighbourhood celebrities.

What was the point?

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It Should Only be the Beginning

My love, if you can speak to the dead, that means you WORK with the dead.

Your spirituality shouldn’t be about performance, it should be about change. Ideally for you and your community, whatever that looks like.

If you are able to talk to the Ancestors this hugely opens up your path, as where do you think your knowledge and wisdom is supposed to come from? Books? Those people of different lineages? TedTalks?

The knowledge and gifts you hold inside yourself can be cracked open by working with your Ancestors and spirits - to stop at giving messages of comfort is ludicrous. You can take down governments with the help of the dead, but you are sat here giving Gladis a message from her husband that died 15 years ago.

You are worth more and this is not what your gifts are meant for. Gifts can be used as a weapon, so point them in the right direction.

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Alongside this, if you are a medium you should be trained to psychopomp - cross the dead over safely and sometimes your ancestors need something from you in the Underworld. A position of purpose and responsibility has be bestowed on more than one occasion.

Please bear in mind that there is danger at play with this so ensure you are trained to ensure you aren’t being put at risk.

If you wish to stay ‘death-centric’ you also have doula work, healing, removing death energy from locations, focusing on specific type of death and aiding their plight, interceding on their behalf in energetic work in specific territories and much much more.

Being a medium is the key to an entire path, not just a death-centric one.

So hone your technique, give a few messages and then go out into the big wide world be a threat.

(In the best possible way obviously).

~ Malika

If you wish to learn who your spirits are, begin down your mediumship path or step forward into the world of psychopomping with The Order of Bona Dea, you can either email us here: att@bonadeas.com or send us a direct message for any pertinent questions.

No one ever understands just how big their role in the universe can be until they are actually doing it.

There are different types of dreams that many of us have. One of these is the dream that is given by a spirit - it comes with instructions on what to do moving forward, answers to a question you have been pondering, or warnings and/or prophecies.

And all you wanted was a break from real life for a while….

So. Lets say in your dream an unknown man walks around a corner and hands you an envelope.

Are you scared?
Are you attracted to him?
Is he familiar?
Is there urgency?
Do you feel like you belong to something?
Is there dread at opening the envelope?
Does the envelope matter?

There are many scenarios that this simple scene could be talking about in your life and on your spiritual path. If anything, the feelings are 50% of making sense of it.

The dream could be telling you bad news will be delivered. A job offer is coming but you can’t see it yet. To stop waiting and move forward into the unknown, closer to the man. Love comes through other communication (so you needn’t go to the bar on Friday).

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Another example - You are in a bathroom and people around you are talking about pregnancy.

Do you want this? Overwhelmed? Trying to leave? Matter of fact? Jealous? Feels like a trap?

In some dreams you will be able to not only remember your feelings, but also your thoughts. All of this is relevant. The more detail you can remember the better.

Especially important if you have been working with your spirits via dreams or are using dream rituals to bring clarity.

~ Malika

NB: If you are inputting this into AI, please, make sure you add your feelings for context otherwise it will give you the incorrect interpretation completely.

Santa Muerte is a Mexican folk saint who is spreading across the globe at a rate that could never have been predicted. She is worshipped and worked with by those of differing religions and those with no spiritual leanings whatsoever.

She is one of few who appears to those in need of her help when they have not called upon her, and, in fact, have no knowledge about who she is at all.

Oddly disconcerting when she looks like a very cute Grimm Reaper (she is 4 ft nothing), but she does fill the room with a feeling of ‘safety’ so there are no feeling of imminent death.

Everybody’s Mother

The best way I can describe her personality is a Mother of errant children (us).

She hopes we choose the light as often as possible, she is always on our team, but she will let us make those mistakes that teach us how to be better people, how to have a better character.

You are a single mother who sleeps with men so you can afford your rent - she absolutely gets it. She’ll get a friend to offer you a job in school hours so you have the choice - continue with what you know or decide you deserve better.

Cartel Member - Father just died and is beside himself with grief. Santa Muerte sees the light in this guy that is buried beneath bad choices and she stokes it. She will comfort this man, love this man and always hold hope that he will make a different decision.

She will not hurt people on his behalf. She will not protect his weapons cache.

She is not an idiot.

If you are a school teacher in Ohio and you are desperately unhappy in your relationship, but what else is there? You feel like you are worth more than this town, more than this job and you want to give more to the world.

Santa Muerte is the one who will give you the courage to make this ‘death’ happen. Sometimes we need that raspy voice in the corner saying ‘if it now, when. Don’t die with this inside of you.’

A protector, cheerleader, benefactor, advisor, someone who raises their eyebrow when you do something questionable…everything a Mother is.

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Her Status

Part of the reason Santa Muerte IS so popular is because she isn’t tarnished by religion. She keeps being rejected by the church and I am hoping this remains in place going forward.

Santa Muerte’s beginnings came during the genocide across the Americas by the Christian Spanish - she has witnessed what has been done in Gods name and the lies that are told.

There have been many smear campaigns by the Catholic Church - especially in Mexico - because she poses a threat to them. She is, very loudly, exactly what the Church should be but chooses not to be.

Effective, accepting and merciful.

By Santa Muerte not being welcomed into the arms of the church, she has been welcomed into the arms of all those the church has (and continues to) rebuked. Queer, non-binary, women, the differently-abled, those in poverty, the abused, immigrants in affluent communities…..it’s a match made in heaven.

~ Malika

Everyone’s relationship with their spirits is different; it all comes down to personalities and path.

My spirit’s have walked me out of a path of chronic people-pleasing, anxiety, low self-worth, suicidal ideation and fear, onto one of freedom, self assurance and resilience.

Anubis took me by the hand and taught me skills in my lineage that I didn’t know existed. He helped me fight the disbelief; the feeling of ‘yeah, but why me? I am not good enough for this…’. He protected me from those in the worlds who tried to interrupt my development in real time.

Sekhmet grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and showed me that the world doesn’t end if I walk out of a shop without buying something, or pressed the brake pedal unnecessarily on a turn.

This was the level of anxiety I lived with.

She taught me boundaries by throwing me into a viper pit when it was necessary, tending to my wounds when they bit too deep. She showed me no mercy, and continues to hold me to the highest standards - pushing me when I don’t think I can go any further.

She will forever be one of my most valued Mothers. A crucial role model and part of me.

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Exu and Pomba Gira walked me though love, sexuality and what being part of a family actually means. The helped me release the grief that had consumed me for decades and they taught me to dance again.

They threw me into the fire so I could burn of the chains that surrounded me.

Every single one of my spirits has fought for me, and I can feel it. I would not be alive without them.

The Fight has Changed

My path was never a light one. It has been dark, old and, at times, terrifying.

The animals that used to eat me in my nightmares every night as a child, are now the parts of me that make me good at my job.

Some of the dark entities that I used to see, weren’t dark but old, powerful and look pretty weird.

But there are still the bad guys.

And now instead of my comrades fighting for me, they fight alongside me so we can change the order of things in the physical reality.

Whether it’s helping someone heal after a divorce, clearing a house where a child is seeing things or dealing with simple spiritual interference, I know there is someone with their ear out just in case…..

This is why they are my comrades.

This is why I try to honour them with every choice I make.

~ Malika

If you would like to know which spirits walk with you and the path you are to take, or need help clearing the darkness, please send an email to att@bonadeas.com.

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Our spiritual and life paths are inherently intertwined. Our character is so incredibly important in terms of where our path leads us.

People mistakenly think that a spiritual path is for everyone - it is not. You can do your Reiki Masters and buy some crystals, but that doesn’t mean you are on a path.

It means you took a step.

You might have travelled across cities to do Ayahuasca in some blokes back bedroom, but now what? Hopefully the medicine gave you insights into yourself - as the vine of death it will lead you into what needs to die in your life for you to thrive.

Are you willing to kill it?

Are you willing to display courage? Ruthlessness? Sacrifice and surrender? To display faith in the face of uncertainty? To leave everything you once knew behind with no guarantees? Because if not, you just went away for the weekend.

Believe me when I say it isn’t just the big things.

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The Responsibility

A spiritual path will bring you power.

It will bring you knowledge of things you do not even know exist yet, and it will cultivate a relationship with them that means you can influence, and out right, dictate certain outcomes.

There are many who have been trusted in the past and have misused the knowledge and the Spirits for their own ends. Who treat them as nothing more than hired guns and their own personal servants.

Firstly, the spirits have to make sure you have amazing boundaries so you don’t just give it away or do work for those who don’t deserve it.

Secondly - if you are reactive, or vengeful or take everything personally you will pull the trigger when you shouldn’t. Or conversely, think love and light is the only way to live rendering yourself impotent.

It’s in ending relationships that are going nowhere. Changing jobs if you feel trapped. Following your instincts and deciding, you know what….I am the most important person in my life.

The Reward

It’s like a video-game.

A friend asks for a tarot reading when you don’t feel well. He has walked out again, what is going to happen? Will he come back? You don’t want to but she needs it.

You put yourself first. You know all she wants is comfort, not the truth. You say no.

Ding ding ding you have now unlocked prophetic dreams because you can be trusted to not just give it away.

We are supposed the be the KEEPERS OF KNOWLEDGE not the constant givers.

You work up the courage to leave your partner - move out, take the dogs - and have no idea what is going to happen after.

Ding ding ding you have shown tremendous courage and serious heart - here is being able to speak to your ancestors on the daily.

So if you are ever wondering why you might be a little stalled on your path, take a little look around at your life and see how you feel. Is there something that you have always wanted to do but put off? Have you been getting messages leading you in one direction but you have been ignoring them as it seems too difficult? Are you in love with your life?

And I would just like to state, you do not have to keep walking your path. You can stop at whatever destination you choose for yourself, it’s all your choice.

~ Malika

The rise of individualism and stepping away from any kind of community has left many people wondering what their purpose is. What is the point in their life?

Are we supposed to just wake up, do laundry, decide yet again what to have for dinner and then go to bed? Is that it?

A fulfilling purpose is always in service (helping) others.

I would like to point out here that there is a big difference between service and servitude; service is freely given, servitude is forced or coerced.

When you are in service every single fibre of your being feels alive and you know you are exactly where you are supposed to be.

For me, that looks like dealing with negative entities and navigating old generational bindings. Difficult, dangerous but my spirits have trained me well and, honestly, it fills me with love.

The worlds are complicated.

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Looking at the Clues

There will be a lineage in your blood.

There is no need to scour the internet to find a Goddess, Lwa or Spirit that fits exactly what you want, and then petition them.

You simply have to unlock the spirits in your ancestry. There will already be years of offerings given by your ancestors that count. That created a bond, that meant they were gifted with skills that could be nurtured and used in service to their community, tribe or clan.

Back in the day, without these skills, the people wouldn’t last long.

There will be clues, throughout your life as to who these spirits are and when you are ready, go and meet them in meditation. Get the feel of them, their personality, the words they have to say.

Then you research and begin walking your path.

A spirit who resides in the underworld will also be an excellent healer to a particular set or people, or with a particular illness. There are those who govern those who died by suicide - maybe your purpose for a period of time is helping those people (which can be done in multiple ways).

Maybe you have Tawaret (Egyptian Hippo Goddess) which would seem hilarious at first glance, but she is a fierce warrior who protects those more vulnerable than herself, and I can think of no greater honour than being trusted with that particular purpose.

From there you walk your path with her and she will teach you how you will do this.

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Everyone is different

There will be some of you, who’s path evolves over decades after passing test after test, which in turn means your purpose will evolve.

There is no point having a Mustang and only driving 30mph. The spirits are always resourceful, and you my darling are a resource, so they will put you to good use.

There are others with full lives who already do so much. They will walk their path and stand as an exemplary role model for the light.

These people are my heroes. Stable, loving, resilient and non judgemental in a world where everything is designed to bring you down.

These are the mothers to us all, and many of them wouldn’t even think they were spiritual.

They just pray now and again.

~ Malika.

Finding out who your personal spirits are doesn’t just give a glimpse into your purpose, but also who you are and why you are the way you are. It answers a lot of questions.

If you are unable to find this out for yourself I work 1-2-1 with individuals and will tell you who they are, what they would like to say in way of an introduction and information on how you are to work with them in the future.

att@bonadeas.com

In this substack’ I will writing about the world that I live in, so some of you that have a foot in this world too or have come for a flying visit, can see that what you experienced was true.

There are factors in all of our lives that decide whether we experience something - Snow, an air-plane, diabetes, children, war, bipolar or love. The same can be said of spiritual and/or supernatural experiences.

My daily life is full of them - both my own and working with those who are aiming for more (spiritual path) or solving problems for those who are dealing with negative consequences (haunting/curse/attachment). So I will be talking in a very grounded, matter of fact way because it is just another Tuesday for me.

A large proportion of my private work revolves around walking into nightmare-ish scenarios and fixing them. It’s normal.

Hauntings are normal.
Attachments are VERY normal.
Possession rarer but in rural America goes up in probability.
Creature do live in the woods.
The dead will visit.

We would be idiots to think this only happens on HBO and then hit the person with anti-anxiety medicine.

In fact, that’s the strange part of all this. Our tight grip on denying what’s right in front of our faces when a man with a slither of authority tells us it’s not real.

Spirits are everywhere, supernaturals have their territories so this is nothing new. Nothing worthy of being sensational or special. As humans we have worked with them for millenia, and it is only in the last 150 years we have stopped under the leadership of men with no skill in this area.

They fear it because they cannot control it., and what you fear you quash.

So please do not expect sexy articles filled with gnashing teeth and saliva dripping down the door handle.

That is my good friend Dave and they don’t have dentists over there, so don’t be rude. He’s doing a really good job.

- Malika